It's hard to believe that I started this blog three years ago... and how much I've neglected it since. Browsing through my online portfolio today (and agonizing over my total lack of postgraduate plans), I realized how much I miss this space.
I miss sharing thoughts and ideas and dreams and trends and music. I miss writing for myself. For the past three months I've been writing any and everything I think employers want to hear. Surprise, surprise-- that shit's draining. And really, I'm no better off because those companies and agencies only want grads with experience and networking abilities. Blech. Those words could easily fall under a Jeopardy! category of "Postgraduate Buzzwords That Sarah Loathes."
I know that I can't go in a wrong direction after graduating; every experience is a building block, yada yada yada. But I want to learn something, you know? I don't want to kill time. I want to get better and I want to be challenged.
Tyler and I went to an improv show last night and all I could think was, All these kids in the audience look so cool and creative. I feel like I missed the boat on experimenting with an edgy, artsy side. I envisioned that as my college experience, but then I assimilated to the university's culture. Shame on me, because I treated my past four years of college like high school.
I'm ready to move on, but how do you move on when you have no place to move to?
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